[ Yeah she was... kind of dreading this reaction. She's absolutely not going into the specifics of what Douman has done to her but; ]
It's... we have some very bad history, at least from my end. My dad - Husk - and Jinwoo have been helping me a lot.
[ Aka she is very not fine, but this isn't about her right now. Instead she listens to Zulius as he yells enough for the both of them, before her eyes drift to Edward. And she... gets it. She really does.
Killing is what they're good at. And if they can't use that to protect the ones they love, what can they do? But he's putting himself at such a risk thinking this. ]
Edward, you can't. And what happened before isn't your fault, there's only so much we can do against people like this. They'll never listen to reason, and they'll never hesitate to spill blood if it will achieve their goals.
You can't take them out - [ This isn't like Teresa. ] - Douman will kill you, and he'll make an example out of you. If I could kill him on my own, I would have already.
[ The height of treasonous talk, but whatever. Her vitriol against Douman has never been a secret within the Order, even though she always simply obeyed before. ]
All this will do is hurt the people you're trying to protect, and put yourself at risk. We need to work together to take them out.
I was correct he IS the literal worst, BUT ANYWAY!!
[He can tell Lapis doesn't wanna talk about it and yelling at Edward is more important right now. It's important that Edward gets yelled at for being an absolute idiot. ]
SERIOUSLY listen to Lapis, she knows this. We've got a whole city full of people who can work together to fight these guys- like GENuninely have you ever seen anyone fight and win ANYTHING in this crazy place ALONE? Like think super hard!!! You've been here long enough to know we don't do this alone. So why are you thinking "welp, I guess I'm gonna do this by myself like a CRAZY person despite knowing NO ONE wants that and it WON'T WORK!", huh?
[He is having NONE of this insanity.]
You wanna get stomped on? Because this is how stupid, selfish people get stomped on!
[I killed Teresa on my own so. But he keeps quiet, and lets out a breath.
They're right. Damn it all, they're right. Edward hates this, and hates that he can't go after the zealots and just cut all this off at the roots before anyone else gets hurt. But they're right.]
I'm a bloody selfish bastard, you haven't figured that out yet, mate?
[There's no real bite to his remark, just an old bitterness at himself coming out. He pushes his fingers through his hair.]
I thought it would, all right? Certainly they're powerful, but they bleed the same as anyone, and if it bleeds it can die. That's what I was thinking. I didn't know what Lapis knows—and I trust what she says, that if she could've killed him on her own she would've. So. [With a very reluctant tone:] Fine. I won't go after them alone.
[Goddamned Shroud. He's gonna dump a can of paint on him.]
I'm used to working alone. Not here, but back home—most of those I've killed on land, I've killed on my own. [And sometimes casually, like checking off an item on a to-do list.] I didn't want to put you all at risk, not more than [I already have] you've already found yourselves in. So I fell back on what I knew best.
I've not worked together with anyone else to murder someone for—a long time, [and the last time had been when he and Mary had worked together to infiltrate a plantation and kill its master,] but I'm—willing.
[A tired breath.]
I can't find them anyway. I've looked through the tower and combed over the city.
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It's... we have some very bad history, at least from my end. My dad - Husk - and Jinwoo have been helping me a lot.
[ Aka she is very not fine, but this isn't about her right now. Instead she listens to Zulius as he yells enough for the both of them, before her eyes drift to Edward. And she... gets it. She really does.
Killing is what they're good at. And if they can't use that to protect the ones they love, what can they do? But he's putting himself at such a risk thinking this. ]
Edward, you can't. And what happened before isn't your fault, there's only so much we can do against people like this. They'll never listen to reason, and they'll never hesitate to spill blood if it will achieve their goals.
You can't take them out - [ This isn't like Teresa. ] - Douman will kill you, and he'll make an example out of you. If I could kill him on my own, I would have already.
[ The height of treasonous talk, but whatever. Her vitriol against Douman has never been a secret within the Order, even though she always simply obeyed before. ]
All this will do is hurt the people you're trying to protect, and put yourself at risk. We need to work together to take them out.
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[He can tell Lapis doesn't wanna talk about it and yelling at Edward is more important right now. It's important that Edward gets yelled at for being an absolute idiot. ]
SERIOUSLY listen to Lapis, she knows this. We've got a whole city full of people who can work together to fight these guys- like GENuninely have you ever seen anyone fight and win ANYTHING in this crazy place ALONE? Like think super hard!!! You've been here long enough to know we don't do this alone. So why are you thinking "welp, I guess I'm gonna do this by myself like a CRAZY person despite knowing NO ONE wants that and it WON'T WORK!", huh?
[He is having NONE of this insanity.]
You wanna get stomped on? Because this is how stupid, selfish people get stomped on!
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They're right. Damn it all, they're right. Edward hates this, and hates that he can't go after the zealots and just cut all this off at the roots before anyone else gets hurt. But they're right.]
I'm a bloody selfish bastard, you haven't figured that out yet, mate?
[There's no real bite to his remark, just an old bitterness at himself coming out. He pushes his fingers through his hair.]
I thought it would, all right? Certainly they're powerful, but they bleed the same as anyone, and if it bleeds it can die. That's what I was thinking. I didn't know what Lapis knows—and I trust what she says, that if she could've killed him on her own she would've. So. [With a very reluctant tone:] Fine. I won't go after them alone.
[Goddamned Shroud. He's gonna dump a can of paint on him.]
I'm used to working alone. Not here, but back home—most of those I've killed on land, I've killed on my own. [And sometimes casually, like checking off an item on a to-do list.] I didn't want to put you all at risk, not more than [I already have] you've already found yourselves in. So I fell back on what I knew best.
I've not worked together with anyone else to murder someone for—a long time, [and the last time had been when he and Mary had worked together to infiltrate a plantation and kill its master,] but I'm—willing.
[A tired breath.]
I can't find them anyway. I've looked through the tower and combed over the city.