["How unbecoming" the echoing, consistent thought rang out as he was trapped amidst branches of painful fate... from two different voices... no... three... four...?
But the one voice that sounded above them all was Edwards's. Snapping him back into reality once more and just nodding once at the direction.
If nothing else is consistent... at least his friend was. So he followed that deep breathing. In, hold in for three, out.
A few times. Just enough to remember where they were here and now.
... As he looked to the ring on his finger again, there was a sense of warm affection... of grounding. Of something he knew to be true no matter what.
...aye. And more than that besides. But don't—don't worry about that for now, all right? I'll explain what's happened to him.
[One hand drops so he can bring out his phone and text Waver about what happened, but at the same time he'll keep the other hand on Diarmuid's shoulder, just to anchor him here onto reality, in the present moment.]
You've been together for—really, as long as I've known the both of you.
[That was one thing solidified... his Master was Waver Velvet. Is Waver Velvet. He sensed a tether, a pull of mana from a limited source but a source nevertheless. While Edward's hand was still grounding him, his eyes were still on that ring.
It was his friend's presence that kept him from falling any further. From moving an inch lest he get torn by fate's brambles again.
Concern painted his expression at the thought of explaining this to his Master. If they were... if they were so close then...?]
Wait. If... if he learns my memories are in flux... he will be heartbroken. [Diarmuid didn't know why he knew that, didn't know why this specific incident of his memory being altered after perishing was something he keenly wished to prevent.
But he did. He could not yet put a face to a name, but there was a coldness that rang through the branches. A coldness synonymous with people he's called "Master", but this one being especially painful... like it was foreign to this Master.]
How could I ever face him after such a failure on my part?
[Oh, god, Diarmuid, why must you always take on the failures of others onto your own shoulders? Edward's face crumples, and he shakes his head in response. Diarmuid's so hell-bent on being a good man, a good knight—it breaks Edward's heart something fierce to hear him call circumstances far out of his own control a miserable failure.]
I won't lie and say he won't be heartbroken. He will be, because he loves you—but it'll be for your sake, and not because he believes it a failure. He doesn't, I promise you, he doesn't. He just misses you, that's all.
[A breath.]
Do you want me to bring you home to him, or should we wait for him here?
[Whether Diarmuid's memories are kept, lost or in flux... what will always remain is that he is a knight. And if he was not a knight. He was not Diarmuid ua Duibhne.
Hearing "he loves you" was like another knife to his chest. Diarmuid would shatter if the circumstances were reversed. If the love of his life had no recollection of him...
A weak, still emotionally raw part of him wished to choose neither option. It went up the chain to one a little stronger telling him to remain here for his Master.
But as ever, the brave and powerful knight within him prevailed. Even through the guilt he couldn't hide on his face as he downcasted. Four voices quietly echoing in his head again, calling him a failure were only quiet because he was not alone.]
I think that I remember the way. The lay of the land here, that I still remember though I do not understand why. It is best, I believe, to confront my Master in his own space.
[...]
Though I would appreciate it if I weren't alone for the journey. I ask that you accompany me to his home.
[Not "our" home. It... it didn't feel right to call it that right now. He didn't have the right.]
I'll take you there the whole way. As for why you're able to remember me and Kaisou but not Waver... [He lets out a breath, runs a hand through his hair.] Mate, I'm not sure, either. It might be something about your nature as a spirit bound to your partner, but you and Waver would know a hell of a lot more than I do.
[Except Edward has his best friend's relic stashed carefully away under his cabin's floorboards in the Jackdaw. So he wonders if that's contributed something.
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But the one voice that sounded above them all was Edwards's. Snapping him back into reality once more and just nodding once at the direction.
If nothing else is consistent... at least his friend was. So he followed that deep breathing. In, hold in for three, out.
A few times. Just enough to remember where they were here and now.
... As he looked to the ring on his finger again, there was a sense of warm affection... of grounding. Of something he knew to be true no matter what.
Even if "what" that was didn't register in full.
After a long silence, Diarmuid spoke quietly.]
Edward Kenway... I ask of you...
... Is "Waver Velvet"... my Master?
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[One hand drops so he can bring out his phone and text Waver about what happened, but at the same time he'll keep the other hand on Diarmuid's shoulder, just to anchor him here onto reality, in the present moment.]
You've been together for—really, as long as I've known the both of you.
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[That was one thing solidified... his Master was Waver Velvet. Is Waver Velvet. He sensed a tether, a pull of mana from a limited source but a source nevertheless. While Edward's hand was still grounding him, his eyes were still on that ring.
It was his friend's presence that kept him from falling any further. From moving an inch lest he get torn by fate's brambles again.
Concern painted his expression at the thought of explaining this to his Master. If they were... if they were so close then...?]
Wait. If... if he learns my memories are in flux... he will be heartbroken. [Diarmuid didn't know why he knew that, didn't know why this specific incident of his memory being altered after perishing was something he keenly wished to prevent.
But he did. He could not yet put a face to a name, but there was a coldness that rang through the branches. A coldness synonymous with people he's called "Master", but this one being especially painful... like it was foreign to this Master.]
How could I ever face him after such a failure on my part?
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I won't lie and say he won't be heartbroken. He will be, because he loves you—but it'll be for your sake, and not because he believes it a failure. He doesn't, I promise you, he doesn't. He just misses you, that's all.
[A breath.]
Do you want me to bring you home to him, or should we wait for him here?
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Hearing "he loves you" was like another knife to his chest. Diarmuid would shatter if the circumstances were reversed. If the love of his life had no recollection of him...
A weak, still emotionally raw part of him wished to choose neither option. It went up the chain to one a little stronger telling him to remain here for his Master.
But as ever, the brave and powerful knight within him prevailed. Even through the guilt he couldn't hide on his face as he downcasted. Four voices quietly echoing in his head again, calling him a failure were only quiet because he was not alone.]
I think that I remember the way. The lay of the land here, that I still remember though I do not understand why. It is best, I believe, to confront my Master in his own space.
[...]
Though I would appreciate it if I weren't alone for the journey. I ask that you accompany me to his home.
[Not "our" home. It... it didn't feel right to call it that right now. He didn't have the right.]
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I'll take you there the whole way. As for why you're able to remember me and Kaisou but not Waver... [He lets out a breath, runs a hand through his hair.] Mate, I'm not sure, either. It might be something about your nature as a spirit bound to your partner, but you and Waver would know a hell of a lot more than I do.
[Except Edward has his best friend's relic stashed carefully away under his cabin's floorboards in the Jackdaw. So he wonders if that's contributed something.
But he doesn't say that right now.]
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[Diarmuid will likely be lost within his own mind, but Edward is the closest thing to a familiar tether he had right now. As for his relic...
That was simply too complicated to consider at the moment. That was the territory of a Mage...]